I totally missed my update post last week, and it looks like there won't be one this week. I took my measurements, but I can't find my notebook ever since I "cleaned up" my living and dining rooms. Da well, I wasn't too happy about them anyway. I have noticed that I am hitting a serious plateau, even as I continue to eat well and exercise regularly. I suppose that since I gave up my sugary coffee drink on May 1st that I thought that I would just see the pounds fall off. That has not been the case. And I have been pissed off. I keep plodding along, doing what I do, but I feel myself becoming a bit obsessed and depressed.
I don't want this to be about measuring and beating myself up. Documenting my journey isn't about week to week changes, its about changes over the long haul. I feel sooo much better about myself than I have in years! I feel healthier and stronger. I am much more in tune with my body and my needs. I am empowered.
But I also want to be smaller, with less fat and more muscle. I want to wear sexy dresses and shorts and swimsuits without feeling self-conscious. Yes, I am loving my healthy, strong body. But I want more. To get more, I have to do more. I look at my almost 100% vegetarian diet (I had two baked chicken wings last week and I ain't ashamed) and my regular running practice (17 miles last week and 16 the week before) and I know I am lapping everyone on the couch. But I can do more.
I don't eat the type of meals that I need to eat to fully fuel my activities. I have to be more diligent about getting the diet right in that respect. Its hard, cause I always have to be thinking about food. I need to find a way to make this easier for me, just like getting my workouts in has become easy. Its just routine at this point, and I need my food intake to be the same. This is something that I am working on.
I also need to challenge my body and vary my routines. I know that once my marathon training starts, my routines will be varied, but I decided to start focusing on that now. Each run should have some type of theme. Either its a long, slow run, or a hill workout or fartleks (I did that today...so much fun) or a tempo run. I also need to actually work on building muscle...I gotta get two days of strength training in, even if it is shorter sessions. Those sessions need to include core too. And yoga, I gotta start doing some yoga.
I know what I need to do, and I know that I will see more improvement if I do them. So ain't nothin to it but to do it at this point! See, having it recorded here makes me accountable and gives me something to look back on in a few months. If I don't make these changes, I can look back here and see what I was supposed to be doing. I'm hoping I will make these changes, but if not, this post will be a kick in the butt for me.
But I do have a few NSVs (non scale victories). My underwear is too big, as are a few of my running tights, and some of my work dresses! I can't afford to buy any new clothes right now, but it does feel good to see that I am getting smaller, even if the scale does not show it.
So it is not all doom and gloom. And this is not a diet or a challenge, its a lifestyle. There will be bumps in the road or times of stagnation, but I am still moving forward into having my best body!
Be well,
Mae
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